I like your lay out. Come back to xanga, I liked those posts more. How's your break so far?

You haven't lost this friend! I miss you too, and I never thought you were a shitty friend. In all honesty, I hung-out with you waaay more than anyone else except J.T. You always invited me to go to San Antonio and to chill...You're like for sure my best friend from school, and the one I'll miss the most. No doubt! I hate to be leaving and at least you're not at home on your shitty break (mine is kinda shitty too) realizing that you may have made the biggest mistake of your life. That, or you're going somewhere and cool shit will be happening very soon. What if I get stuck in Midland and never come out? What if I don't go to another school? What if..what if...so many run through my head on a daily basis. But overall, at the end of the day I feel good about my decision. As a matter of fact, you're such a great friend that the reason I left was 100% because I couldn't live with you. I don't think I told you this, because I thought you would think it was your fault. I just knew that I couldn't live in an environment where I wasn't around at least ONE person who loved me. I knew I couldn't deal with LA or a bitchy room-mate again. I talked to Tiffany and she was just real bitch about it even though she had said that I could live with you since I had gone through so much bullshit with Michelle. She suggested another apartment but I said, "Fuck it, I'm leaving Schreiner." So...okay, I'm sure there were like ten thousand other reasons I left, but this one for some reason pushed me over the edge. I couldn't stand the thought of not living with you...eh. I don't know. Everything happens for a reason, right? Austin will treat me well and you'll do great things at Schreiner. You shine there, and I felt like I died a little every day. I didn't have a gang of sorority girls to keep my spirits up, I had drugs and an abusive boyfriend and friends I treated poorly. I didn't fit in and I realized that at Mountaineer days, I had blue hair and everyone freaked-out about it. Whether they liked it or not, I got so much unwanted attention. I had probably never received more stares and walked-in on more whispered conversations. I felt like Harry fucking Potter on his first day at Hogwarts. At that moment I thought, "I'm really going to have to change who I am to fit in around here...." So, I bought nicer clothes and re-dyed and cut my hair and tried very hard to change who I was on the inside. And this year, I came back as Liz Harris and it seemed like people hated her. I hated people and I felt alone quite a bit, and not just literal loneliness...even with people I felt weird. It's all me, I'm a fucked-up person and Schreiner is a horrible place to realize that, and a much worse place to try and work it all out. Just know that I never felt lonely around you and I never thought of you as a bad friend. Never, not once. I love you Kristen Glass, you're a good friend okay? My best friend from Schriener.

Uh, so I'll be in San Antonio right before y'all all go back to school, so we should chill. And I will come and visit here and there.

I want you to hear this new Blue October song, it's called "Into the Ocean."
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I love you, be happy okay? Oh, and expect a ridiculous drunk-dialing from me tonight, yay for 2007!